Chapter 82
第082回 · Dream of the Red Chamber
Chapter 82
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Chapter 82
The Old Pedagogue Expounds the Classics to Rouse His Wayward Pupil; The Lovesick Nymph of River Xiao Lays a Troubled Soul to Rest in a Frightful Dream
Baoyu came home from school and paid his respects to the Lady Dowager. "Good," she said with a smile. "At last that wild colt has been bridled. Now go and see your father and then come back and amuse yourself." Baoyu assented and went to see Jia Zheng. "Is school over so early?" his father asked. "Has your tutor set you any tasks?" "Yes, sir. He's set me to study my books in the morning, practice my calligraphy after breakfast, and do my texts and essays at noon." Jia Zheng nodded. "Go back then and sit with the old lady. You should be learning the proper conduct of a gentleman, not just playing the fool all the time. Go to bed early tonight and get up early tomorrow for school. Do you hear?" "Yes, sir," Baoyu answered several times, and withdrew. He hurried to see Lady Wang and then paid his respects to the Lady Dowager again.
He hastened out again, wishing he could fly straight to Bamboo Lodge. The moment he stepped through the door, he clapped his hands and cried, "I'm back again!" The sudden outburst gave Daiyu quite a start. Zijuan raised the curtain and Baoyu came in and sat down. "I thought vaguely I heard you'd gone to school," said Daiyu. "You're back so soon?" "Oh, it's been unbearable!" replied Baoyu. "Today when Father made me go to school, it felt as if I'd never see you all again. I dragged myself through one whole day, and now that I'm with you, it's like coming back from the dead. How true the old saying is: 'One day apart seems three autumns long!'" "Have you been up to see the others?" "Yes." "And the other places?" "Not yet." "You ought to go and see them too." "I'm too lazy to move at the moment. I'll just sit here and talk to you for a while. Father told me to go to bed early and get up early, so I'll go and see them tomorrow." "Sit a while then. You really ought to rest." "I'm not tired, just bored. Sitting here with you has driven away the boredom, and now you're hurrying me off." Daiyu smiled faintly and told Zijuan, "Brew a bowl of my Longjing tea for the Second Master. Now that he's studying, things aren't what they used to be." Zijuan smiled and assented. She fetched the tea leaves and told a young maid to brew it. Baoyu went on, "Don't talk to me about studying! I loathe all that moralistic stuff. Even more ridiculous are those eight-legged essays. If they're just used to fool people into giving you a degree and a living, all right. But they claim to speak for the sages. The better ones just cobble together bits from the classics. The worst ones, with nothing in their heads at all, drag in all sorts of nonsense about gods and ghosts and think themselves profound. How can that illuminate the sages' teachings? Father keeps telling me I must learn this, and I don't dare disobey him—and yet here you are talking about studying!" "We girls may not need such things," said Daiyu, "but when I was young and studied with your Mr. Yucun, I read some of them. Among them were some that were reasonable and sensible, some that were subtle and refined. I didn't understand much at the time, but I felt they were good and shouldn't all be dismissed. Besides, if you want to gain an official position, this is a rather honorable path." Baoyu was displeased by this, for Daiyu had never been like this before. Why was she now so worldly and ambitious? Not daring to contradict her, he simply smiled through his nose. Just then they heard two people talking outside—Qiūwén and Zijuan. "Sheren told me to go to the old lady's place to fetch you," said Qiūwén. "Who would have thought I'd find you here?" "We've just brewed some tea here," said Zijuan. "You may as well drink it before you go." The two came in together. "I was just going over," Baoyu said to Qiūwén with a smile. "I've put you to the trouble of coming to fetch me." Before Qiūwén could reply, Zijuan said, "Drink your tea quickly and go. Someone's been thinking of you all day." "Pah, you stupid little wench!" Qiūwén swore, and everyone laughed. Baoyu stood up and took his leave. Daiyu escorted him to the door, and Zijuan stood on the steps. Only after Baoyu had gone did she go back inside.
When Baoyu returned to Happy Red Court and entered his room, Xiren came out from the inner chamber to meet him and asked, "Are you back?" Qiūwén replied, "The Second Master came back quite early—he was at Miss Lin's place." Baoyu asked, "Is there anything I need to do today?" Xiren said, "No business as such. Just now the Madam sent Yuanyang to tell us that the Master is furious and wants you to study. If any maids dare joke around with you again, they'll be dealt with just like Qingwen and Sigh. I've waited on you all this time, and now I get nothing else but scolding—it's all so depressing." As she spoke, she began to feel miserable. Baoyu quickly said, "Good sister, don't you worry. I'll study properly, and the Madam won't say anything more to you. I have to read tonight anyway—tomorrow the tutor will call on me to explain a text. If I need anything, there are Sheyue and Qiūwén. You go and rest." Xiren said, "If you really will study, we'll be happy to wait on you." Baoyu hurriedly finished his supper, then ordered the lamp to be lit and brought out the Four Books he had already read. But where should he start? He opened a book and looked through it—on the surface, each chapter seemed clear enough, but when he examined it closely, he didn't really understand it. He read the minor commentaries, then the lecture notes, and before he knew it the night watchman had struck the watch. He thought to myself, "I find poetry so easy, but in this I can't make head or tail of anything." He sat there lost in thought. Xiren said, "Rest now. Study doesn't all have to be done at once." Baoyu murmured vaguely in reply. Sheyue and Xiren helped him into bed, and then they too went to sleep. But when they woke later, they could hear Baoyu tossing and turning on the kang. Xiren said, "Are you still awake? Stop letting your thoughts wander—rest your spirit so you can study better." Baoyu said, "That's what I want to do, but I can't sleep. Come and pull off a layer of my quilt." Xiren said, "It's not hot—don't take it off." Baoyu said, "I feel terribly restless." He pushed the quilt off himself. Xiren quickly sat up and held it down, then reached up to feel his forehead—he seemed to have a slight fever. Xiren said, "Don't move—you've got a fever." Baoyu said, "So I do." Xiren said, "How did this happen?" Baoyu said, "It's nothing to worry about—it's just because I'm upset. Don't make a fuss, or if the Master finds out, he'll say I'm pretending to be ill to skip school—how else would I happen to get sick at just this time? Tomorrow when I'm better, I'll go back to school and that'll be the end of it." Xiren felt sorry for him and said, "Let me sleep next to you." She rubbed his back for a while, and before they knew it, they all fell asleep again. Not until the red sun was high did they finally rise. Baoyu said, "Oh no, it's late!" He hurriedly washed and dressed, paid his respects, and went off to the school. Dai Ru had already put on a stern face. "No wonder your father is angry with you and says you have no ambition. The very next day you're already lazy—what time do you call this to arrive!" Baoyu explained about his fever the previous night, and that passed; he went back to his regular reading. In the evening, Dai Ru said, "Baoyu, come and explain a chapter of the book." Baoyu went over and looked—it was the chapter on "The Young Are to Be Feared." Baoyu thought to himself, "This is all right—luckily it's not from the *Great Learning* or the *Doctrine of the Mean*." He asked, "How should I explain it?" Dai Ru said, "Go through the main points and the sentences carefully." Baoyu first read the chapter aloud in a clear voice, then said, "This chapter is the sage encouraging the young, urging them to make timely efforts so as not to..." He looked up at Dai Ru. Dai Ru caught on and smiled. "Just go on—there's nothing to avoid when explaining a text. The *Book of Rites* says 'when reading a text, do not observe taboos.' Go on—'so as not to' what?" Baoyu said, "So as not to end up old and accomplished of nothing. First, the words 'to be feared' rouse the ambition of the young; then the words 'not to be feared' warn them about their future." He finished and looked at Dai Ru. Dai Ru said, "That will do for now. Now the running commentary?" Baoyu said, "The sage says that when a person is young, his mind and energy are sharp and capable, and truly formidable. Who could have foretold that his later days would be like my present ones. If he idles along to forty, then to fifty, and is unable to get ahead, such a person may have seemed promising when young, but by then no one will fear him anymore." Dai Ru smiled. "Your main points were clear enough, but there's something childish in the way you put it. 'No reputation' doesn't simply mean not being able to advance in officialdom. 'Reputation' really means that one has truly come to understand principle and perceive the Way—then even without an official post, one has 'reputation.' Otherwise, the ancient sages who withdrew from the world and were not known—were they not without office? Could they also be called 'having no reputation'? 'Not to be feared' means that one can be foreseen with certainty—this is what corresponds to the word 'know' in 'how can one know,' not the notion of 'fear.' You must see this to grasp the finer points. Do you understand?" Baoyu said, "I understand." Dai Ru said, "There's another chapter—explain this one too." He turned forward a page and pointed it out to Baoyu. Baoyu looked: it was "I have never seen one who loves virtue as he loves beauty." Baoyu felt this chapter struck a nerve, and with an embarrassed smile he said, "There's not much to explain in this sentence." Dai Ru said, "Nonsense! If this topic came up in the examination hall, would you say there's nothing to write about?" Baoyu had no choice but to explain it: "This—"
When the Sage saw that people were unwilling to cultivate virtue, yet became utterly infatuated upon encountering beauty, he lamented. He did not consider that virtue is something inherent in one's nature, yet people stubbornly refuse to cultivate it. As for beauty, though it too is endowed by Heaven, there is no one who does not desire it. But virtue is Heavenly principle, while beauty is human desire—how could people ever cherish Heavenly principle as they do human desire? Though Confucius spoke in lament, he also hoped that people might turn back. Moreover, he perceived that those who do pursue virtue do so only superficially; only when one pursues virtue with the same fervor as one pursues beauty can it be called true cultivation." Daiyu said, "That is a fair enough interpretation. But let me ask you something: since you understand the Sage's words, why do you yourself commit precisely these two faults? Though I am not at home, your master has not told me, yet I know your failings full well. As a person, how can you not strive to improve? You are at an age when 'the young are to be regarded with awe'—whether they will become 'worthy of awe' or not depends entirely on what you do. I now give you one month to review and master all the texts you have already studied, and another month to study essays. After that, I will set topics for you to write essays. If you slack off, I will absolutely not tolerate it. The old saying goes: 'Those who achieve their potential do not enjoy ease; those who enjoy ease do not achieve their potential.' Remember my words well." Baoyu assented, and had no choice but to apply himself to his studies every day. So much for this.
After Baoyu began attending school, Happy Red Court became considerably more peaceful and leisure. Xiren could now take up some needlework. She sat with her embroidery, intending to stitch a betel nut pouch, thinking that now that Baoyu had his studies, the maids would no longer suffer want. If only things had been this way earlier—then wouldn't Qingwen have come to such an unfortunate end? When the rabbit dies, the fox grieves; she could not help shedding tears. Then suddenly it occurred to her that she was not destined to be Baoyu's principal wife—she was originally a concubine. Baoyu's character, she could still manage, but she feared that if he married a formidable woman, she herself would become a second Sister You or Xiangling. She had long observed the manner in which the Lady Dowager, Lady Wang, and Sister Feng spoke on the matter, and it was naturally beyond doubt that it would be Daiyu. And Daiyu was a person of many sensitivities. Thinking of this, her face flushed and her heart burned. She held the needle without knowing where she had pricked herself, so she set down her needlework and went to Daiyu's quarters to sound out her intentions.
Daiyu was reading when she saw Xiren and rose to offer her a seat. Xiren also hurried forward and asked, "Has the young lady been feeling much better these past few days?" Daiyu said, "How could I be? I am only slightly stronger. What have you been doing at home?" Xiren said, "Now that Master Bao is attending school, there is nothing at all to do in his quarters, so I came to visit the young lady and have a chat." As she spoke, Zijuan brought tea. Xiren quickly stood up and said, "Sister, please sit." Then she smiled and added, "The other day I heard Qiuwen say that the young lady said something about us behind our backs." Zijuan also laughed and said, "Sister, how can you believe what he said! I said that since Master Bao is attending school, Miss Bao is kept apart, and even Xiangling doesn't come over, you must naturally be bored." Xiren said, "You even mention Xiangling—she is the one who suffers! She ran into this tyrannical mistress—how can she possibly get through it!" She held up two fingers and said, "In fact, she is even worse than the other. She doesn't even care about her reputation outside." Daiyu continued, "She has suffered enough too—how did Second Sister You die?" Xiren said, "Indeed. When you think about it, they are all the same person, only their status differs a little. Why be such a poison? Her reputation outside is not good either." Daiyu had never heard Xiren speak of others behind their backs before; hearing these words now, which clearly had a purpose, she said, "That is hard to say. In all family matters, it is either the east wind prevailing over the west wind, or the west wind prevailing over the east wind." Xiren said, "When one is in the position of a concubine, one's heart is timid from the start—how would one dare to bully others?"
Just then, an old woman was heard calling in the courtyard, "Is this Miss Lin's room? Is that young lady here?" Xueyan came out and, peering through the dim light, vaguely recognized her as someone from Aunt Xue's household. "What do you want?" she asked. "Our young lady sent me to bring something to Miss Lin here," said the old woman. "Wait a moment," said Xueyan, and went back in to report to Daiyu, who told her to bring the woman in. The old woman came in and paid her respects, but instead of announcing what she had brought, she stared at Daiyu until the young lady felt her cheeks grow warm with embarrassment. "What did Miss Bao send me?" Daiyu asked. Only then did the old woman smile and reply, "Our young lady asked me to bring you a bottle of honey-preserved lychees." Turning her head and catching sight of Xiren, she said, "Isn't this Miss Hua, from Master Bao's apartments?" "How do you know me, Mother?" Xiren asked with a smile. "We look after the rooms in the Old Lady's quarters and seldom go out with the ladies, so we don't know the young ladies very well. But when any of them happen to come over to our side, we still have a vague recollection of them." With that she handed the bottle to Xueyan, then looked back at Daiyu and said to Xiren with a smile, "No wonder our Old Lady says that Miss Lin and your Master Bao are a perfect match—she really is a fairy from heaven." Xiren saw that the old woman was speaking with too little restraint and quickly changed the subject. "You must be tired, Mother. Sit down and have some tea." "We're very busy over there," the old woman said cheerfully. "We're all getting things ready for Miss Qin. Our young lady has two more bottles of lychees to send to Master Bao." So saying, she took her leave with tottering steps. Though Daiyu was annoyed by the old woman's forwardness, she could hardly show it since she had been sent by Baochai. Only after the woman had gone out the door did she say, "Tell your young lady I'm grateful for her thought." But the old woman kept muttering to herself as she went, "Such a beautiful face—other than Baoyu, who could be worthy of her?" Daiyu pretended not to hear. Xiren laughed and said, "People get to be such old chatterboxes. What they say is enough to make you angry and amused at the same time." Presently Xueyan brought the bottle over for Daiyu to look at. "I don't feel like eating any," said Daiyu. "Just put it away." After they had talked a little more, Xiren left.
Later that evening, as she was removing her evening toilette, Daiyu went into the inner room and suddenly raised her eyes to see the bottle of lychees. She could not help recalling the old woman's foolish remarks from earlier that day, which struck her to the heart. It was dusk, and all was still; a thousand anxieties and ten thousand regrets welled up within her. She thought how frail her health was and how she was no longer young. As for Baoyu, she felt sure there was no other woman in his heart, yet the Old Lady and her uncle's wife showed not the slightest inclination on the matter. She bitterly regretted that her parents, when alive, had not arranged this marriage long ago. Then again she thought, "Even if my parents had lived and arranged a match elsewhere, how could anyone else have been so gifted and kind-hearted as Baoyu? And in that case, there would still have been hope." Her mind tossed up and down, turning over and over incessantly, like a well-windlass. She sighed, shed a few tears, and, listless and without a thought in her head, lay down fully dressed.
Before she knew it, a little maid came in and said, "Master Jia Yucun from outside is asking to see you, miss." Daiyu replied, "Although I studied under him, I am not like the male students. What could he want to see me for? Besides, he has dealings with my uncle, yet has never mentioned me before. It would not be proper for me to see him." She told the little maid, "Tell him I am unwell and cannot come out. Give him my greetings and thanks." The little maid said, "He may be coming to congratulate you, miss. There are people from Nanjing coming to fetch her." As she spoke, Xifeng arrived together with Lady Xing, Lady Wang, and Baochai, all smiling as they said, "We have come both to congratulate you and to see you off." Daiyu said in alarm, "What are you all talking about?" Xifeng said, "Stop pretending to be stupid. Don't you know that your father, Lin, has been promoted to Grain Commissioner of Hubei and has married a second wife who suits him perfectly? Now he thinks it improper to leave you here, so he asked Jia Yucun to act in arranging a match for you with some relative of your stepmother. They say it is a second marriage, and that is why people have been sent here to take you back. You are to be married as soon as you arrive home. It is all being arranged by your stepmother. Fearing you might lack someone to escort you along the way, she has asked your Second Brother Lian to accompany you." Daiyu broke out in a cold sweat. She had a vague feeling that her father was indeed serving as an official somewhere, and her mind raced as she insisted, "It is not true. Sister Feng is just making up stories." Lady Xing glanced at Lady Wang. "She still doesn't believe us. Let us be off," she said. Daiyu, her eyes brimming with tears, said, "Aunties, please sit a while longer." No one spoke. They all left with cold smiles. Daiyu was frantic inside but could not speak, choking on her sobs. She had a fleeting impression that she was with Grandmother Jia again, and thought to myself, "If I appeal to the old lady, perhaps she can save me." She dropped to her knees, threw her arms around the old lady's waist, and pleaded, "Save me, Grandmother! I would rather die than go to the south! Besides, I have a stepmother who is not my real mother. I would rather stay with you forever." But the old lady only stared at her with a blank face and said, "This is no concern of mine." Daiyu cried, "Grandmother, what is this about?" The old lady said, "A second marriage is not bad. At least you would have a new dowry." Daiyu wept, "If I stay with you, Grandmother, I would not cost you a single extra coin. I beg you to save me." Grandmother Jia said, "It is no use. A woman must be married eventually. You are a child and do not understand. You cannot stay here forever." Daiyu said, "I would rather stay here and live as a servant, working for my own keep. I am willing to do that. Only let you decide for me." The old lady said nothing. Daiyu clung to her waist and wept, "Grandmother, you have always been the most compassionate and loved me the most. How can you not help me in this hour of need? Never mind that I am only your granddaughter, one generation removed. My mother was your own daughter. For her sake, you should protect me." With that, she buried her face in the old lady's lap and wept bitterly. Then she heard Grandmother Jia say, "Yuanyang, take the young lady out to rest. She has quite worn me out." Daiyu knew then that there was no hope. Pleading was useless. She might as well end her life. She stood up and walked straight out, grieving deeply that she had no mother of her own. Even her grandmother, aunts, and cousins, however well they had treated her, it all proved to be false. Then she thought, "Why is Baoyu not here today? If I could just see him, perhaps he might have a way." Baoyu appeared before her, grinning. "Congratulations, Sister!" he said. These words threw Daiyu into a greater frenzy. She no longer cared about propriety and seized Baoyu tightly. "Very well, Baoyu, today I know you are a heartless, ungrateful man!" Baoyu said, "How am I heartless and ungrateful? Since you are betrothed to another, we must each go our own way." Daiyu grew more and more furious and could think of nothing to do. She could only clutch Baoyu and cry, "Good Brother, whom am I to follow?" Baoyu said, "If you do not wish to go, then stay here. You were promised to me originally, and that is why you came to our house. Think of how I have treated you." Daiyu had a vague feeling that she had indeed been promised to Baoyu, and her grief suddenly turned to joy. She asked Baoyu, "I have made up my mind once and for all. Do you want me to go or not?" Baoyu said, "I say you should stay. If you do not believe me, look at my heart." With that, he took a small knife and slashed it across his chest. Blood streamed down. Daiyu was terrified out of her wits. She pressed her hand to Baoyu's chest and cried, "How could you do such a thing? Kill me first!" Baoyu said, "Don't be afraid. I am showing you my heart." He dug his fingers into the gash and tore at it. Daiyu trembled and wept, afraid someone might discover them, and clung to Baoyu in anguish. Baoyu said, "It is no good. My heart is gone. I cannot live." His eyes rolled back, and he collapsed with a thud. Daiyu burst into a desperate wail. Then she heard Zijuan calling, "Miss, Miss, what nightmare are you having? Wake up quickly and take off your clothes to sleep." Daiyu turned over. It had been nothing but a terrible dream.
Her throat was still choked with sobs, her heart still fluttering wildly. The pillow was already soaked through, and her shoulders, back, and whole body felt icy cold. After a moment's thought: "Father has been dead a long while, and the betrothal with Baoyu has not yet been settled—where has this all come from?" Then she thought of the scenes in the dream—with no one to lean on, no one to rely upon—if Baoyu really had died, what on earth would she do? In that instant, as the pain receded only to return with greater force, her very soul was in turmoil. She wept again, and presently a faint perspiration broke out over her whole body. She struggled up, took off her outer jacket, and asked Zijuan to tuck in the covers properly, then lay back down. She tossed and turned—there was no question of sleep. All she could hear was a rustling, sifting sound outside—now like the wind, now like rain. After a pause, she heard distant calls and cries, but it was only Zijuan, already asleep, with the sound of her breathing. She struggled to sit up and huddled under the quilt for a while. She felt a thread of cold air seeping through the window seam, raising the goosebumps all over her, and lay down again. Just as she was drifting into a drowsy half-sleep, she heard what seemed countless sparrows on the bamboo branches, chirping and chattering without cease. Through the paper on the window, past the shutter, a pale light gradually began to filter in.
By now Daiyu was wide awake, her eyes bright and clear. After a moment she began to cough, and even Zijuan was roused by the coughing. Zijuan said, "Miss, you still haven't fallen asleep? And you're coughing again—you must be coming down with a cold. The window paper has turned pale; it'll be light soon enough. Do rest a bit, gather your strength—don't keep brooding over this and that." Daiyu said, "It's not that I don't want to sleep—I simply can't. You go on sleeping." And then she coughed again. Seeing Daiyu in such a state, Zijuan felt a sadness rise in her own heart and could not sleep either. Hearing Daiyu cough again, she quickly got up and brought the spittoon. By now it had grown light outside. Daiyu said, "You're not sleeping either?" Zijuan said with a smile, "It's broad daylight—what's the point of sleeping now?" Daiyu said, "In that case, do change the spittoon." Zijuan assid, hurried out to fetch a fresh one, placed the one in her hand on the table, opened the door to the inner room, came out, closed it again, drew down the embroidered soft curtain, and went to wake Xueyan. When she opened the empty room door and went to empty the box, she saw it was full of phlegm, and in the phlem were flecks of blood. Zijuan was so startled she cried out involuntarily: "Ai-yao, this is serious!" Daiyu called from inside to ask what it was, and Zijuan, realizing she had misspoken, quickly amended: "My hand slipped and I nearly dropped the spittoon." Daiyu said, "Is there something wrong with the phlegm in the box?" Zijuan said, "Nothing at all." But even as she said this, her heart ached and tears streamed down her face, her voice already breaking. Daiyu had been suspicious for a while, having noticed a sweet, faintly bloody taste in her throat. She had heard Zijuan's startled exclamation outside, and now she heard the note of grief in Zijuan's voice—she was more than eighty percent certain. She called to Zijuan: "Come in—mind you don't catch cold out there." Zijuan assented, but her voice was even more pitiful than before, thick with suppressed sobs. Daiyu felt half her body turn to ice. When she saw Zijuan push open the door and come in, she was still wiping her eyes with a handkerchief. Daiyu said, "It's early in the morning—why are you crying?" Zijuan forced a smile. "Who's crying? My eyes just feel a bit uncomfortable when I first get up. You must have been awake even longer than usual tonight—I heard you coughing half the night." Daiyu said, "That's right—the more I try to sleep, the less I can." Zijuan said, "You're not at all well, and if you ask me, you must try to distract yourself a bit. The body is the root of everything, as the saying goes: 'So long as the green mountain still stands, there will be firewood to burn.' Besides, from the Old Lady and Lady Wang down, who here doesn't dote on you?" These words alone brought back the dream to Daiyu's mind. She felt a violent thudding in her chest, a darkness before her eyes, and her whole countenance changed. Zijuan quickly held the spitton ready while Xueyan pounded her back, and after a long while she brought up a mouthful of phlegm. In the phlegm was a thread of dark purple blood, throbbing and pulsing. Zijuan and Xueyan turned pale with fright. The two kept watch at her side as Daiyu sank into a drowsy stupor. Seeing how ill she looked, Zijuan pursed her lips to signal Xueyan to go and fetch someone.
Xueyan had just stepped out of the door when she saw Cuilü and Cuimo coming toward her, smiling cheerfully. Cuilü said, "Why hasn't Miss Lin gone out yet, this late? Our miss and Third Miss are in Fourth Miss's room, discussing the garden landscape Fourth Miss painted." Xueyan quickly waved her hands. Cuilü and Cuimo both started in alarm and said, "What's the reason for this?" Xueyan told them everything that had just happened. The two girls stuck out their tongues and said, "This is no joking matter! Why didn't you tell the Old Lady about this? This is serious! How could you be so foolish?" Xueyan said, "I was just about to go when you arrived." As they were speaking, they heard Zijuan call out, "Who's talking outside? The young lady is asking." The three hurried in together. Cuilü and Cuimo saw Daiyu lying in bed covered with a quilt. Seeing the two of them, Daiyu said, "Who told you? Why are you so alarmed?" Cuimo said, "Our miss and Miss Yun were both in Fourth Miss's room discussing the garden picture Fourth Miss painted, and they sent us to invite Miss over. We didn't know you were feeling unwell again." Daiyu said, "It's nothing serious. I just feel a bit weak in the body. I'll get up after lying down a while. Tell Third Miss and Miss Yun that if they have nothing to do after the meal, they're welcome to come sit here. Hasn't Master Bao been over to your side?" The two replied, "No." Cuimo added, "Master Bao has been attending school these past two days. The Master checks his lessons every day now, so he can't go running around as wildly as before." Daiyu listened and said nothing. The two stood a little longer, then quietly withdrew.
Meanwhile, Tanchun and Xiangyun were at Xichun's place critiquing the painting of the Prospect Garden that Xichun had done—saying this part had a little too much, that part a little too little, this section too sparse, that section too dense. They were also discussing composing poems and had sent someone to ask Daiyu to come and consult with them. As they were talking, they suddenly saw Cuilü and Cuimo returning, their expressions hurried. Xiangyun asked first, "Why didn't Miss Lin come?" Cuilü said, "Miss Lin had another flare-up of her illness last night. She coughed all night. We heard Xueyan say she coughed up a whole box of bloody phlegm." Tanchun said in surprise, "Is this really true?" Cuilü said, "Why wouldn't it be true?" Cuimo said, "We just went in and took a look. Her complexion is completely gone, and even her strength for speaking is faint." Xiangyun said, "If she's that unwell, how can she still speak?" Tanchun said, "How can you be so foolish—if she couldn't speak, that would already be..." But she stopped herself mid-sentence. Xichun said, "Sister Lin is such a clever person, but I think there are some things she just can't see through. She takes every little thing seriously. How many things in this world are really true?" Tanchun said, "Since that's the case, let's all go over and see her. If her illness is serious, we can go tell the eldest sister-in-law so she can report to the Old Lady and call a doctor in to take a look—we need to have a plan." Xiangyun said, "That's exactly right." Xichun said, "Sisters go first. I'll come over later." So Tanchon and Xiangyun, each leaning on a little maid, went to the Bamboo Lodge. When they entered the room, Daiyu saw the two of them and could not help feeling sad again. Then she thought back to the dream—even the Old Lady had been like that, let alone them. Besides, if she hadn't invited them, they wouldn't have come. Though this was what she thought in her heart, she couldn't show it on her face. She had no choice but to have Zijuan help her up and invite them to sit. Tanchun and Xiangyun both sat on the edge of the bed, one at each end. Seeing Daiyu in this condition, they too felt saddened. Tanchun said, "Sister, why are you feeling unwell again?" Daiyu said, "It's nothing serious. I just feel very weak." Zijuan, standing behind Daiyu, secretly pointed with her finger at the phlegm box. Xiangyun, being young by nature and forthright in temperament, reached out and picked up the phlegm box to look. She hadn't looked before, but having looked, she was shocked and alarmed beyond measure. She said, "This is what Sister coughed up? This is serious!" Earlier Daiyu had been in a daze and hadn't looked carefully after coughing. Now hearing Xiangyun say this, she turned her head to look and saw that she herself had already lost half her spirit. Tanchun, seeing Xiangyun's bluntness, quickly explained, "This is just lung fire rising—bringing up a little blood is quite common. It's just that Yun, no matter what, always makes such a fuss about everything!" Xiangyun blushed and regretted her careless words. Tanchun, seeing that Daiyu's spirits were low and that she seemed weary, quickly stood up and said, "Sister, rest peacefully and conserve your strength. We'll come see you again later." Daiyu said, "Thank you both for thinking of me." Tanchun also instructed Zijuan to take good care of the young lady, and Zijuan agreed. Just as Tanchun was about to leave, they heard someone outside shouting. Who it was will be told in the next chapter.
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話說寶玉下學回來,見了賈母。賈母笑道:“好了,如今野馬上了籠頭了。去罷,見見你老爺,回來散散兒去罷。”寶玉答應著,去見賈政。賈政道:“這早晚就下了學了么?師父給你定了工課沒有?”寶玉道:“定了。早起理書,飯後寫字,晌午講書念文章。”賈政聽了,點點頭兒,因道:“去罷,還到老太太那邊陪著坐坐去。你也該學些人功道理,別一味的貪頑。晚上早些睡,天天上學早些起來。你聽見了?”寶玉連忙答應幾個“是”,退出來,忙忙又去見王夫人,又到賈母那邊打了個照面兒。
赶著出來,恨不得一走就走到瀟湘館才好。剛進門口,便拍著手笑道:“我依舊回來了!”猛可里倒唬了黛玉一跳。紫鵑打起帘子,寶玉進來坐下。黛玉道:“我恍惚聽見你念書去了。這麼早就回來了?”寶玉道:“噯呀,了不得!我今兒不是被老爺叫了念書去了么,心上倒象沒有和你們見面的日子了。好容易熬了一天,這會子瞧見你們,竟如死而复生的一樣,真真古人說‘一日三秋,這話再不錯的。”黛玉道:“你上頭去過了沒有?”寶玉道:“都去過了。”黛玉道:“別處呢?”寶玉道:“沒有。”黛玉道:“你也該瞧瞧他們去。”寶玉道:“我這會子懶待動了,只和妹妹坐著說一會子話兒罷。老爺還叫早睡早起,只好明兒再瞧他們去了。”黛玉道:“你坐坐兒,可是正該歇歇兒去了。”寶玉道:“我那里是乏,只是悶得慌。這會子咱們坐著才把悶散了,你又催起我來。”黛玉微微的一笑,因叫紫鵑:“把我的龍井茶給二爺沏一碗。二爺如今念書了,比不的頭里。”紫鵑笑著答應,去拿茶葉,叫小丫頭子沏茶。寶玉接著說道:“還提什麼念書,我最厭這些道學話。更可笑的是八股文章,拿他誆功名混飯吃也罷了,還要說代圣賢立言。好些的,不過拿些經書湊搭湊搭還罷了,更有一种可笑的,肚子里原沒有什麼,東拉西扯,弄的牛鬼蛇神,還自以為博奧。這那里是闡發圣賢的道理。目下老爺口口聲聲叫我學這個,我又不敢違拗,你這會子還提念書呢。”黛玉道:“我們女孩兒家雖然不要這個,但小時跟著你們雨村先生念書,也曾看過。內中也有近情近理的,也有清微淡遠的。那時候雖不大懂,也覺得好,不可一概抹倒。況且你要取功名,這個也清貴些。”寶玉聽到這里,覺得不甚入耳,因想黛玉從來不是這樣人,怎麼也這樣勢欲熏心起來?又不敢在他跟前駁回,只在鼻子眼里笑了一聲。正說著,忽聽外面兩個人說話,卻是秋紋和紫鵑。只聽秋紋道:“襲人姐姐叫我老太太那里接去,誰知卻在這里。”紫鵑道:“我們這里才沏了茶,索性讓他喝了再去。”說著,二人一齊進來。寶玉和秋紋笑道:“我就過去,又勞動你來找。”秋紋未及答言,只見紫鵑道:“你快喝了茶去罷,人家都想了一天了。”秋紋啐道:“呸,好混帳丫頭!”說的大家都笑了。寶玉起身才辭了出來。黛玉送到屋門口兒,紫鵑在台階下站著,寶玉出去,才回房里來。
卻說寶玉回到怡紅院中,進了屋子,只見襲人從里間迎出來,便問:“回來了么?”秋紋應道:“二爺早來了,在林姑娘那邊來著。”寶玉道:“今日有事沒有? ”襲人道:“事卻沒有。方才太太叫鴛鴦姐姐來吩咐我們:如今老爺發狠叫你念書,如有丫鬟們再敢和你頑笑,都要照著晴雯司棋的例辦。我想,伏侍你一場,賺了這些言語,也沒什麼趣兒。”說著,便傷起心來。寶玉忙道:“好姐姐,你放心。我只好生念書,太太再不說你們了。我今兒晚上還要看書,明日師父叫我講書呢。我要使喚,橫豎有麝月秋紋呢,你歇歇去罷。”襲人道:“你要真肯念書,我們伏侍你也是歡喜的。”寶玉聽了,赶忙吃了晚飯,就叫點燈,把念過的”四書”翻出來。只是從何處看起?翻了一本,看去章章里頭似乎明白,細按起來,卻不很明白。看著小注,又看講章,鬧到梆子下來了,自己想道:“我在詩詞上覺得很容易,在這個上頭竟沒頭腦。”便坐著呆呆的呆想。襲人道:“歇歇罷,做工夫也不在這一時的。”寶玉嘴里只管胡亂答應。麝月襲人才伏侍他睡下,兩個才也睡了。及至睡醒一覺,聽得寶玉炕上還是翻來复去。襲人道:“你還醒著呢么?你倒別混想了,養養神明兒好念書。”寶玉道:“我也是這樣想,只是睡不著。你來給我揭去一層被。”襲人道:“天氣不熱,別揭罷。”寶玉道:“我心里煩躁的很。”自把被窩褪下來。襲人忙爬起來按住,把手去他頭上一摸,覺得微微有些發燒。襲人道:“你別動了,有些發燒了。”寶玉道:“可不是。”襲人道:“這是怎麼說呢!”寶玉道:“不怕,是我心煩的原故。你別吵嚷,省得老爺知道了,必說我裝病逃學,不然怎麼病的這樣巧。明兒好了,原到學里去就完事了。”襲人也覺得可怜,說道:“我靠著你睡罷。”便和寶玉捶了一回脊梁,不知不覺大家都睡著了。直到紅日高升,方才起來。寶玉道:“不好了,晚了!”急忙梳洗畢,問了安,就往學里來了。代儒已經變著臉,說:“怪不得你老爺生氣,說你沒出息。第二天你就懶惰,這是什麼時候才來!”寶玉把昨兒發燒的話說了一遍,方過去了,原舊念書。到了下晚,代儒道:“寶玉,有一章書你來講講。”寶玉過來一看,卻是”後生可畏”章。寶玉心上說:“這還好,幸虧不是‘學’‘庸’。”問道:“怎麼講呢?”代儒道:“你把節旨句子細細兒講來。”寶玉把這章先朗朗的念了一遍,說:“這章書是圣人勸勉後生,教他及時努力,不要弄到……”說到這里,抬頭向代儒一瞧。代儒覺得了,笑了一笑道:“你只管說,講書是沒有什麼避忌的。《禮記》上說‘臨文不諱’,只管說,‘不要弄到’什麼?”寶玉道:“不要弄到老大無成。先將‘可畏’二字激發後生的志氣,後把‘不足畏’二字警惕後生的將來。”說罷,看著代儒。代儒道:“也還罷了。串講呢?”寶玉道:“圣人說,人生少時,心思才力,樣樣聰明能幹,實在是可怕的。那里料得定他後來的日子不象我的今日。若是悠悠忽忽到了四十歲,又到五十歲,既不能夠發達,這种人雖是他後生時象個有用的,到了那個時候,這一輩子就沒有人怕他了。”代儒笑道:“你方才節旨講的倒清楚,只是句子里有些孩子氣。‘無聞’二字不是不能發達做官的話。‘聞’是實在自己能夠明理見道,就不做官也是有‘聞’了。不然,古圣賢有遁世不見知的,豈不是不做官的人,難道也是‘無聞’么?‘不足畏’是使人料得定,方與‘焉知’的‘知’字對針,不是‘怕’的字眼。要從這里看出,方能入細。你懂得不懂得?”寶玉道:“懂得了。”代儒道:“還有一章,你也講一講。”代儒往前揭了一篇,指給寶玉。寶玉看是”吾未見好德如好色者也。”寶玉覺得這一章卻有些刺心,便陪笑道:“這句話沒有什麼講頭。”代儒道:“胡說!譬如場中出了這個題目,也說沒有做頭么?”寶玉不得已,講道:“是圣人看見人不肯好德,見了色便好的了不得。殊不想德是性中本有的東西,人偏都不肯好他。至于那個色呢,雖也是從先天中帶來,無人不好的。但是德乃天理,色是人欲,人那里肯把天理好的象人欲似的。孔子雖是歎息的話,又是望人回轉來的意思。并且見得人就有好德的好得終是浮淺,直要象色一樣的好起來,那才是真好呢。”代儒道:“這也講的罷了。我有句話問你:你既懂得圣人的話,為什麼正犯著這兩件病?我雖不在家中,你們老爺也不曾告訴我,其實你的毛病我卻盡知的。做一個人,怎麼不望長進?你這會兒正是‘後生可畏’的時候,‘有聞’‘不足畏’全在你自己做去了。我如今限你一個月,把念過的舊書全要理清,再念一個月文章。以後我要出題目叫你作文章了。如若懈怠,我是斷乎不依的。自古道:‘成人不自在,自在不成人。’你好生記著我的話。”寶玉答應了,也只得天天按著功課幹去。不提。
且說寶玉上學之後,怡紅院中甚覺清淨閒暇。襲人倒可做些活計,拿著針線要繡個檳榔包兒,想著如今寶玉有了工課,丫頭們可也沒有饑荒了。早要如此,晴雯何至弄到沒有結果?兔死狐悲,不覺滴下淚來。忽又想到自己終身本不是寶玉的正配,原是偏房。寶玉的為人,卻還拿得住,只怕娶了一個利害的,自己便是尤二姐香菱的後身。素來看著賈母王夫人光景及鳳姐兒往往露出話來,自然是黛玉無疑了。那黛玉就是個多心人。想到此際,臉紅心熱,拿著針不知戳到那里去了,便把活計放下,走到黛玉處去探探他的口氣。
黛玉正在那里看書,見是襲人,欠身讓坐。襲人也連忙迎上來問:“姑娘這幾天身子可大好了?”黛玉道:“那里能夠,不過略硬朗些。你在家里做什麼呢?”襲人道:“如今寶二爺上了學,房中一點事兒沒有,因此來瞧瞧姑娘,說說話兒。”說著,紫鵑拿茶來。襲人忙站起來道:“妹妹坐著罷。”因又笑道:“我前兒聽見秋紋說,妹妹背地里說我們什麼來著。”紫鵑也笑道:“姐姐信他的話!我說寶二爺上了學,寶姑娘又隔斷了,連香菱也不過來,自然是悶的。”襲人道:“你還提香菱呢,這才苦呢,撞著這位太歲奶奶,難為他怎麼過!”把手伸著兩個指頭道:“說起來,比他還利害,連外頭的臉面都不顧了。”黛玉接著道:“他也夠受了,尤二姑娘怎麼死了。”襲人道:“可不是。想來都是一個人,不過名分里頭差些,何苦這樣毒?外面名聲也不好聽。”黛玉從不聞襲人背地里說人,今聽此話有因,便說道:“這也難說。但凡家庭之事,不是東風壓了西風,就是西風壓了東風。”襲人道:“做了旁邊人,心里先怯了,那里倒敢去欺負人呢。”
說著,只見一個婆子在院里問道:“這里是林姑娘的屋子么?”那位姐姐在這里呢?”雪雁出來一看,模模糊糊認得是薛姨媽那邊的人,便問道:“作什麼?”婆子道:“我們姑娘打發來給這里林姑娘送東西的。”雪雁道:“略等等兒。”雪雁進來回了黛玉,黛玉便叫領他進來。那婆子進來請了安,且不說送什麼,只是覷著眼瞧黛玉,看的黛玉臉上倒不好意思起來,因問道:“寶姑娘叫你來送什麼?”婆子方笑著回道:“我們姑娘叫給姑娘送了一瓶兒蜜餞荔枝來。”回頭又瞧見襲人,便問道:“這位姑娘不是寶二爺屋里的花姑娘么?”襲人笑道:“媽媽怎麼認得我?”婆子笑道:“我們只在太太屋里看屋子,不大跟太太姑娘出門,所以姑娘們都不大認得。姑娘們碰著到我們那邊去,我們都模糊記得。”說著,將一個瓶兒遞給雪雁,又回頭看看黛玉,因笑著向襲人道:“怨不得我們太太說這林姑娘和你們寶二爺是一對兒,原來真是天仙似的。”襲人見他說話造次,連忙岔道:“媽媽,你乏了,坐坐吃茶罷。”那婆子笑嘻嘻的道:“我們那里忙呢,都張羅琴姑娘的事呢。姑娘還有兩瓶荔枝,叫給寶二爺送去。”說著,顫顫巍巍告辭出去。黛玉雖惱這婆子方才冒撞,但因是寶釵使來的,也不好怎麼樣他。等他出了屋門,才說一聲道:“給你們姑娘道費心。”那老婆子還只管嘴里咕咕噥噥的說:“這樣好模樣兒,除了寶玉,什麼人擎受的起。”黛玉只裝沒聽見。襲人笑道:“怎麼人到了老來,就是混說白道的,叫人聽著又生氣,又好笑。”一時雪雁拿過瓶子來與黛玉看。黛玉道:“我懶待吃,拿了擱起去罷。”又說了一回話,襲人才去了。
一時晚妝將卸,黛玉進了套間,猛抬頭看見了荔枝瓶,不禁想起日間老婆子的一番混話,甚是刺心。當此黃昏人靜,千愁萬緒,堆上心來。想起自己身上不牢,年紀又大了。看寶玉的光景,心里雖沒別人,但是老太太舅母又不見有半點意思。深恨父母在時,何不早定了這頭婚姻。又轉念一想道:“倘若父母在時,別處定了婚姻,怎能夠似寶玉這般人才心地,不如此時尚有可圖。”心內一上一下,輾轉纏綿,竟象轆轤一般。歎了一回氣,掉了幾點淚,無情無緒,和衣倒下。
不知不覺,只見小丫頭走來說道:“外面雨村賈老爺請姑娘。”黛玉道:“我雖跟他讀過書,卻不比男學生,要見我作什麼?況且他和舅舅往來,從未提起,我也不便見的。”因叫小丫頭:“回复‘身上有病不能出來’,與我請安道謝就是了。”小丫頭道:“只怕要與姑娘道喜,南京還有人來接。”說著,又見鳳姐同邢夫人,王夫人,寶釵等都來笑道:“我們一來道喜,二來送行。”黛玉慌道:“你們說什麼話?”鳳姐道:“你還裝什麼呆。你難道不知道林姑爺升了湖北的糧道,娶了一位繼母,十分合心合意。如今想著你撂在這里,不成事体,因托了賈雨村作媒,將你許了你繼母的什麼親戚,還說是續弦,所以著人到這里來接你回去。大約一到家中就要過去的,都是你繼母作主。怕的是道兒上沒有照應,還叫你璉二哥哥送去。”說得黛玉一身冷汗。黛玉又恍惚父親果在那里做官的樣子,心上急著硬說道:“沒有的事,都是鳳姐姐混鬧。”只見邢夫人向王夫人使個眼色兒,”他還不信呢,咱們走罷。”黛玉含著淚道:“二位舅母坐坐去。”眾人不言語,都冷笑而去。黛玉此時心中乾急,又說不出來,哽哽咽咽。恍惚又是和賈母在一處的似的,心中想道:“此事惟求老太太,或還可救。”于是兩腿跪下去,抱著賈母的腰說道:“老太太救我!我南邊是死也不去的!況且有了繼母,又不是我的親娘。我是情願跟著老太太一塊兒的。”但見老太太呆著臉兒笑道:“這個不干我事。”黛玉哭道:“老太太,這是什麼事呢。”老太太道:“續弦也好,倒多一副妝奩。”黛玉哭道:“我若在老太太跟前,決不使這里分外的閒錢,只求老太太救我。”賈母道:“不中用了。做了女人,終是要出嫁的,你孩子家,不知道,在此地終非了局。”黛玉道:“我在這里情願自己做個奴婢過活,自做自吃,也是願意。只求老太太作主。”老太太總不言語。黛玉抱著賈母的腰哭道:“老太太,你向來最是慈悲的,又最疼我的,到了緊急的時候怎麼全不管!不要說我是你的外孫女兒,是隔了一層了,我的娘是你的親生女兒,看我娘分上,也該護庇些。”說著,撞在怀里痛哭,聽見賈母道:“鴛鴦,你來送姑娘出去歇歇。我倒被他鬧乏了。”黛玉情知不是路了,求去無用,不如尋個自盡,站起來往外就走。深痛自己沒有親娘,便是外祖母與舅母姊妹們,平時何等待的好,可見都是假的。又一想:“今日怎麼獨不見寶玉?或見一面,看他還有法兒?”便見寶玉站在面前,笑嘻嘻地說:“妹妹大喜呀。”黛玉聽了這一句話,越發急了,也顧不得什麼了,把寶玉緊緊拉住說:“好,寶玉,我今日才知道你是個無情無義的人了。”寶玉道:“我怎麼無情無義?你既有了人家兒,咱們各自幹各自的了。”黛玉越聽越氣,越沒了主意,只得拉著寶玉哭道:“好哥哥,你叫我跟了誰去?”寶玉道:“你要不去,就在這里住著。你原是許了我的,所以你才到我們這里來。我待你是怎麼樣的,你也想想。”黛玉恍惚又象果曾許過寶玉的,心內忽又轉悲作喜,問寶玉道:“我是死活打定主意的了。你到底叫我去不去?”寶玉道:“我說叫你住下。你不信我的話,你就瞧瞧我的心。”說著,就拿著一把小刀子往胸口上一划,只見鮮血直流。黛玉嚇得魂飛魄散,忙用手握著寶玉的心窩,哭道:“你怎麼做出這個事來,你先來殺了我罷!”寶玉道:“不怕,我拿我的心給你瞧。”還把手在划開的地方兒亂抓。黛玉又顫又哭,又怕人撞破,抱住寶玉痛哭。寶玉道:“不好了,我的心沒有了,活不得了。”說著,眼睛往上一翻,咕咚就倒了。黛玉拼命放聲大哭。只聽見紫鵑叫道:“姑娘,姑娘,怎麼魘住了?快醒醒兒脫了衣服睡罷。”黛玉一翻身,卻原來是一場惡夢。
喉間猶是哽咽,心上還是亂跳,枕頭上已經濕透,肩背身心,但覺冰冷。想了一回,“父親死得久了,與寶玉尚未放定,這是從那里說起?”又想夢中光景,無倚無靠,再真把寶玉死了,那可怎麼樣好!一時痛定思痛,神魂俱亂。又哭了一回,遍身微微的出了一點兒汗,扎掙起來,把外罩大襖脫了,叫紫鵑蓋好了被窩,又躺下去。翻來复去,那里睡得著。只聽得外面淅淅颯颯,又象風聲,又象雨聲。又停了一會子,又聽得遠遠的吆呼聲兒,卻是紫鵑已在那里睡著,鼻息出入之聲。自己扎掙著爬起來,圍著被坐了一會。覺得窗縫里透進一縷涼風來,吹得寒毛直豎,便又躺下。正要朦朧睡去,聽得竹枝上不知有多少家雀兒的聲兒,啾啾唧唧,叫個不住。那窗上的紙,隔著屜子,漸漸的透進清光來。
黛玉此時已醒得雙眸炯炯,一回兒咳嗽起來,連紫鵑都咳嗽醒了。紫鵑道:“姑娘,你還沒睡著么?又咳嗽起來了,想是著了風了。這會兒窗戶紙發清了,也待好亮起來了。歇歇兒罷,養養神,別盡著想長想短的了。”黛玉道:“我何嘗不要睡,只是睡不著。你睡你的罷。”說了又嗽起來。紫鵑見黛玉這般光景,心中也自傷感,睡不著了。聽見黛玉又嗽,連忙起來,捧著痰盒。這時天已亮了。黛玉道:“你不睡了么?”紫鵑笑道:“天都亮了,還睡什麼呢。”黛玉道:“既這樣,你就把痰盒兒換了罷。”紫鵑答應著,忙出來換了一個痰盒兒,將手里的這個盒兒放在桌上,開了套間門出來,仍舊帶上門,放下撒花軟帘,出來叫醒雪雁。開了屋門去倒那盒子時,只見滿盒子痰,痰中好些血星,唬了紫鵑一跳,不覺失聲道:“噯喲,這還了得!”黛玉里面接著問是什麼,紫鵑自知失言,連忙改說道:“手里一滑,幾乎撂了痰盒子。”黛玉道:“不是盒子里的痰有了什麼?”紫鵑道:“沒有什麼。”說著這句話時,心中一酸,那眼淚直流下來,聲兒早已岔了。黛玉因為喉間有些甜腥,早自疑惑,方才聽見紫鵑在外邊詫异,這會子又聽見紫鵑說話聲音帶著悲慘的光景,心中覺了八九分,便叫紫鵑:“進來罷,外頭看涼著。”紫鵑答應了一聲,這一聲更比頭里凄慘,竟是鼻中酸楚之音。黛玉聽了,涼了半截。看紫鵑推門進來時,尚拿手帕拭眼。黛玉道:“大清早起,好好的為什麼哭?”紫鵑勉強笑道:“誰哭來,早起起來眼睛里有些不舒服。姑娘今夜大概比往常醒的時候更大罷,我聽見咳嗽了大半夜。”黛玉道:“可不是,越要睡,越睡不著。”紫鵑道:“姑娘身上不大好,依我說,還得自己開解著些。身子是根本,俗語說的,‘留得青山在,依舊有柴燒。’況這里自老太太,太太起,那個不疼姑娘。”只這一句話,又勾起黛玉的夢來。覺得心頭一撞,眼中一黑,神色俱變,紫鵑連忙端著痰盒,雪雁捶著脊梁,半日才吐出一口痰來。痰中一縷紫血,簌簌亂跳。紫鵑雪雁臉都唬黃了。兩個旁邊守著,黛玉便昏昏躺下。紫鵑看著不好,連忙努嘴叫雪雁叫人去。
雪雁才出屋門,只見翠縷翠墨兩個人笑嘻嘻的走來。翠縷便道:“林姑娘怎麼這早晚還不出門?我們姑娘和三姑娘都在四姑娘屋里講究四姑娘畫的那張園子景兒呢。”雪雁連忙擺手兒,翠縷翠墨二人倒都嚇了一跳,說:“這是什麼原故?”雪雁將方才的事,一一告訴他二人。二人都吐了吐舌頭兒說:“這可不是頑的!你們怎麼不告訴老太太去?這還了得!你們怎麼這麼糊涂。”雪雁道:“我這里才要去,你們就來了。”正說著,只聽紫鵑叫道:“誰在外頭說話?姑娘問呢。”三個人連忙一齊進來。翠縷翠墨見黛玉蓋著被躺在床上,見了他二人便說道:“誰告訴你們了?你們這樣大驚小怪的。”翠墨道:“我們姑娘和雲姑娘才都在四姑娘屋里講究四姑娘畫的那張園子圖兒,叫我們來請姑娘來,不知姑娘身上又欠安了。”黛玉道:“也不是什麼大病,不過覺得身子略軟些,躺躺兒就起來了。你們回去告訴三姑娘和雲姑娘,飯後若無事,倒是請他們來這里坐坐罷。寶二爺沒到你們那邊去?”二人答道:“沒有。”翠墨又道:“寶二爺這兩天上了學了,老爺天天要查功課,那里還能象從前那麼亂跑呢。”黛玉聽了,默然不言。二人又略站了一回,都悄悄的退出來了。
且說探春湘雲正在惜春那邊論評惜春所畫大觀園圖,說這個多一點,那個少一點,這個太疏,那個太密。大家又議著題詩,著人去請黛玉商議。正說著,忽見翠縷翠墨二人回來,神色匆忙。湘雲便先問道:“林姑娘怎麼不來?”翠縷道:“林姑娘昨日夜里又犯了病了,咳嗽了一夜。我們聽見雪雁說,吐了一盒子痰血。”探春聽了詫异道:“這話真么?”翠縷道:“怎麼不真。”翠墨道:“我們剛才進去去瞧了瞧,顏色不成顏色,說話兒的氣力兒都微了。”湘雲道:“不好的這麼著,怎麼還能說話呢。”探春道:“怎麼你這麼糊涂,不能說話不是已經……”說到這里卻咽住了。惜春道:“林姐姐那樣一個聰明人,我看他總有些瞧不破,一點半點兒都要認起真來。天下事那里有多少真的呢。”探春道:“既這麼著,咱們都過去看看。倘若病的利害,咱們好過去告訴大嫂子回老太太,傳大夫進來瞧瞧,也得個主意。”湘雲道:“正是這樣。”惜春道:“姐姐們先去,我回來再過去。”于是探春湘雲扶了小丫頭,都到瀟湘館來。進入房中,黛玉見他二人,不免又傷心起來。因又轉念想起夢中,連老太太尚且如此,何況他們。況且我不請他們,他們還不來呢。心里雖是如此,臉上卻礙不過去,只得勉強令紫鵑扶起,口中讓坐。探春湘雲都坐在床沿上,一頭一個。看了黛玉這般光景,也自傷感。探春便道:“姐姐怎麼身上又不舒服了?”黛玉道:“也沒什麼要緊,只是身子軟得很。”紫鵑在黛玉身後偷偷的用手指那痰盒兒。湘雲到底年輕,性情又兼直爽,伸手便把痰盒拿起來看。不看則已,看了唬的驚疑不止,說:“這是姐姐吐的?這還了得!”初時黛玉昏昏沉沉,吐了也沒細看,此時見湘雲這麼說,回頭看時,自己早已灰了一半。探春見湘雲冒失,連忙解說道:“這不過是肺火上炎,帶出一半點來,也是常事。偏是雲丫頭,不拘什麼,就這樣蝎蝎螫螫的!”湘雲紅了臉,自悔失言。探春見黛玉精神短少,似有煩倦之意,連忙起身說道:“姐姐靜靜的養養神罷,我們回來再瞧你。”黛玉道:“累你兩位惦著。”探春又囑咐紫鵑好生留神伏侍姑娘,紫鵑答應著。探春才要走,只聽外面一個人嚷起來。未知是誰,下回分解。
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